Tainted Thoughts

Where do I go

What do I aim for

The only thing that made me feel fulfilled

Just walked out the door

Who do I love

What do I seek

Why does the most important person

Make me feel so weak?

Is it you?

Is it her?

Whats the meaning of bliss

Scars made on blank paper

Since you're too afraid to hurt yourself

You blame your pain on those around you.

War In Our Hearts

[Verse 1]:

Can you hear the sirens blaring

What a difference it has made

You can help them all by caring

While we pull them from the shade

The things we used to talk about

Were left behind that day

Theres a war in our hearts as the children pout

Yet there nothing to say

Just stand up tall and face it all

It only takes a voice

[Chorus]:

Tell me why you run from me

Everytime I close my eyes at night

I've been chasing all our dreams

But two of us can only climb so high

[Verse 2]:

Can you see the fire blazing

As it changes the world we made

The light it makes is so amazing

But our hopes begin to fade

The things we used to talk about

Were reminded again today

Theres a war in our hearts but we're full of doubt

So we go our seperate way

So face it all. Stand up tall.

We'll take the long way home.

[Chorus]:

Tell me why you run from me

Everytime I close my eyes at night

I've been chasing all our dreams

But two of us can only climb so high

Turn around and look at me

Tell me darling do we have to fight

Our hearts are on our sleeves it seems

Will we ever have to say goodbye

[Bridge]:

If our dreams came true

But we vanquish into thin air

I will remember you

And save you from this nightmare

(Short pause)

Escape it all. Erase it all.

Face it all. Stand up tall.

I'll risk it all for you

My Wish

[verse 1]:

For the first time

Forever becomes true

No other interfering with our remedy

Its just you and me

And me and you

Levanta tus manos

Si tu tienes un amor

Dale un beso

Porque no hay nadie mas mejor

Y cuando bailas con mi

[Chorus]:

I feel how much you love me

Ahora no hay vida sin ti

Cause I want you right here with me

Y cuando piensas a mi

I feel how close you could be

No hay vida sin ti

So stay with me

[verse 2]:

No te llores mi amor

Solo tu eres por mi

My love is your fortress

And your heart is the key

Everything you dream baby

We can make it true

Porque todo que yo necesito

Es amor y tu

[Chorus]:

I feel how much you love me

Ahora no hay vida sin ti

Cause I want you right here with me

Y cuando piensas a mi

I feel how close you could be

No hay vida sin ti

So stay with me

[Bridge]:

Forever love is my wish

Your wish is mine (3x)

And when that wish is granted..

[Close]:

I feel how much you love me

Ahora no hay vida sin ti

Life Game

So you start a new game

One player starting an adventure

Give yourself a name

One that has a meaning

Or one thats completely idiotic

But the story doesnt change

Now you start off on a path

Fighting monsters left and right

Hoping for a save point soon

And thats where ill be standing

So you know you can start again

From any mistake you made

But we all know that after you save

Theres a boss waiting soon

Waiting to take the life you lived

Countless times

But you can always try again

Until you run out of lives

Game Over

Until you decide to step forward

And challenge yourself once again

Cause nothing is harder..

Than overcoming yourself.

River of Sorrow

Cry me a river
And I'll float upstream
To the source of your sorrows
And the climax of your despair
Only to find that a river that flows in circles
Takes me nowhere
A compilation of misery
But never flows
Connected the pieces only to realize
That I was the source of your tears.

A Girl Is Still A Girl

Could you ever love a weapon
With the body of a girl
Her right arm is a minigun
And her left arm is a sword
She still has a heart
But shes used by the military
Shes screaming for help
But her struggle is unnecessary
Cause shes confined in a room
Where nobody can hear
What would you do
To save that girl from fear.
You see her in battle
Your reaction is the cause
That she was able to be accepted
Regardless of her flaws
Now tell, is a girl still a girl
If she seems unusual
And shes from a different world
Cause nobody is the same
That is why we lack acceptance
And in the end we feel repentance
But a girl is still a girl
No matter where we're from
Or what they do
Cause even if they look different
They have a heart just like you.

Love like Mine

Less than two months
Bound by no trust
How do I know if I'm giving too less
Or too much
You never tell me too much
I tell you everything you need to know
About me and what I have to show
I wanna say I love you so
Why am I leaving so much space
For your feelings to grow out of place
This is unbelievable
I may just be conceited, though
Why do I think you'll love me when
Your love is hot, but your heart is cold
So heres a blanket, share it with the guy you love
It could be me
Or someone else who makes you happy
But no matter what people say
You're the one I love
Proven fact no side story
Because you're the one I love
I'm sorry but
If by some chance
Someone takes my place
I hope he treats you to your tastes
Takes it at a slower pace
Looks you in the face
And shows you love like nobody can do
But thats impossible
'Cause nobody can love you like I love you

Why is it

After all the times I hurt you

Left you once then took you back

Only to hurt you once again

And with the strength that I lack

You forgive me again

Why is it you keep loving me

Why is it you're still here with me

Why is it you wont yell at me

And love me to infinity

But even if you call my name

My mind still goes insane.

Happiness (Sonnet)

What is the meaning of true happiness?

Is it the laughter of a mother's heart?

What does it take to receive the true bliss?

When me and the world grow quickly apart.

My heart begins to beat so hard and fast,

Like rain dropping on a shattered window.

I know this loneliness will never last,

After the rain is done, theres a rainbow.

Don't ever fear a bliss that makes you cry,

Hardship is the first step to true friendships.

Always be truthful and don't tell a lie,

Not a single lie coming from your lips.

Because you always must have honesty

For everyone to truly be happy.

Make it yours

What love do you have in store

For a heart that hasn't been restored

To its original form

Thats been through so much shit

Thats been put down

Spit on

And closes every single door

What are you waiting for

Find another opening

If you want to fix its core

It needs another life in it.

Will it be you?

Meaning of Forever

[verse 1]:

You know your heart's worth taking
I'll stay with you
Please stop the smile you're faking
Theres nothing I wont do

I know you're crying

And mentally broken

Feels like you're dying

But looking for ways to fly

So we ask why..

[Chorus]:

They say we're too young
To love
But I can't help seeing your smile again
Now we're grown up
To fight
But now you're falling for another man
Never give up
For you
Cause you're the only one who understands

The true meaning of forever

[Verse 2]:

Do you know what I always tell you?

You're beautiful

Even when theres tears on your face

I still say the same

I know you're crying

And mentally broken

But when you're with me

We've finally learned to fly

So we ask how..

[Chorus]:

They say we're too young
To love
But I can't help seeing your smile again
Now we're grown up
To fight
But now you're falling for another man
Never give up
For you
Cause you're the only one who understands

The true meaning of forever

[Bridge]: (2x)

The true meaning of..

The true meaning of..

The true meaning of..

Forever love.. 

[Chorus]:

They say we're too young
To love
But I can't help seeing your smile again
Now we're grown up
To fight
But now you're falling for another man
Never give up
For you
Cause I put my life in your hands

And I pour out all my love for you

Because you love me too~

Love Hurts

[Verse 1]

I remember that day

When we first met

Seeking for a love that's not the same

I was scared to love

With a broken heart

But I couldn't help, but fall in love again

Let's give us a chance we say

Why'd I throw it all away

I need you here right now baby

Today.... Oh, forever stay

[Chorus]

Love (4x)

Why do you hurt so bad?

(Why do you hurt so bad?)

Love (4x)

Give me a second chance

[Verse 2]

Nobody else

Can make a song like we do

Every step we take

Is another step closer

And we won't stop 'til we meet

[Chorus]

Love (4x)

Why do you hurt so bad?

(Why do you hurt so bad?)

Love (4x)

Give me a second chance

[Bridge]

The finer things in life

Are the things we don't notice

Begging for another chance

As if you don't know this

Isn't the same love

That we had when we were younger

We try to love some more

But we still hunger

Not enough love to feed the remain

So instead of love; we feel pain.

[Chorus]

Love (4x)

Why do you hurt so bad?

(Why do you hurt so bad?)

Love (4x)

Give me a second chance

(Give me a second chance)

Smiled Cause You Knew

Verse 1:

I never felt this way before

This is what I'm waiting for

I give you love, but you want more

A promise that I can't ensure

I know your heart is really true

Because I'm still in love with you

Do you know what you should do

To save me

Oh, save my life

I'm broken as it is

I'm standing over shattered bliss

I don't know what to do

So help me

Oh, lift me up

Didn't you know that...

Chorus:

All it really takes is a smile

One that lasts forever

A love that keeps the fire going

Did you know I miss your smile

When your heart brings us together

I remember all my love for you

And you smiled 'cause you knew

Verse 2:

Forever is a long time

But everytime I try

I end up underground (underground)

Sing a song that wont rhyme

Is like you want to fly

But end up falling down (falling down)

Its never over in my heart

I've always loved you from the start

But I never knew..

Chorus:

That all it really takes is a smile

One that lasts forever

A love that keeps the fire going

Did you know I miss your smile

And when your heart brings us together

I remember all my love for you

And you smiled 'cause you knew

Bridge:

Now that you mention it

I never thought that it was meant to be

I give my life for everything

You need

Then you'll see..

Chorus:

That all it really takes is a smile

One that lasts forever

A love that keeps the fire going

Did you know I miss your smile

And when your heart brings us together

I remember all my love for you

And you smiled 'cause you knew

I knew that I love you..

And that you love me too..

Impossible

My desires don't sync with reality

Whats left of me

The lies that stood there desperately

Unfortunately, they're dead to me

No point inbelieving what I see

Nor what I hear

Because the only things I fear

Is shedding a single tear

And exposing my weakness to those who are near

Love Hurts

Were you ever really mine

How could i have something so divine

I decided

That your love was a sign

That provided

A forever unbroken heart

A work of art

That i would try to design

But i only returned with pain

From your excuses

What did i really gain

From your amuses

But you tell me you love me

Is it true

Or is it so you dont feel lonely

Is there a time you will be leaving

When is it due

Will you leave me here screaming

Cause when you do

Your true intentions is what im reading

Although the one i love is you

Youre the reason why im bleeding.

Discovery

Search for ways create new paths to lead others
Create a reason and a new future
When we were young, we started big
But grew small as we grew older
Our dreams slowly demote themselves into a smaller future
But you find happiness in it anyways
There are still many things to discover
Because there is always something missing
But never search too far
The thing you may be looking
May be what you never wanted to know.

Existence

There is still new
In a discovered world
We can travel here and there
Trusting our direction to a device
'Cause we no longer rely on instincts
We search for a leader
When we have leaders within ourselves
But that leadership is occupied
In search for our purpose
Leading our mind and body
Reaching the conclusion of our existence
"Who am I?"
I am me and for that reason
I exist.

Heart Made of Rubber

Your love electrocutes me
I exaggerate the pain
You inflicted on my heart
But loyal i remain
The sun is up
Im trying to stay sane
I cant help but feel that you dont feel the same
But you cant have a rainbow without rain
My rain is pouring
And you are my rainbow
What does your rain do?
If my heart was made of rubber
Your electrocution cant hurt me
Then i could love you always
And for eternity.

Black and White Strings

Mothers and strangers will never get along
Daughters and uncertainty will never mix like black and white strings in harmony
Maybe you'll never be able to tell yourself who signed your birth certificate
Maybe you don't even exist
Until you write down your existence
Black and White beauty shining through your smile
Afraid to have your adoption papers tattooed to your spine
Fearing a signature can substitute your umbilical chord
Haunted by the black and white lines that gave you your identity
A heaven sent foster, you lovely shadow
Lost your printed name, black and white silhouette i find my eyes searching for you
But my past left you married to a peninsula bus stop 6 feet under in the pages of your lives
Where your words fail to resuscitate your life
So you find solace living between the lines
Praying the outside world could never read in
But the loneliness leaves you drowning in deprivation
The pages abort you in abandonment
Your thoughts somehow manage to use your nervous system as a railroad rather than a red line
But you still find correlation to flat lines
The x-axis means nothing if you cant climb the Y
But i try not to question the heights because i never knew how high the horizontal line was
Until they found you 6 feet under your composition drowning in the concrete
I only wished i learned to swim
Maybe i could've saved you from the reality
That ran you down the street that night.

Only Two

[verse 1]:
I see you crying on the doorstep,
Feeling all alone.
Being blinded from whats right and wrong
I cant take it anymore..
Hold your hand right by the water,
Confess my love to you.
Youre all i want, all i need,
No one else would do..
Who am i without you?

[Chorus]:
Shoot.... me... doooowwwn,
But i wiill always stand tall by your side,
Swim..... and.... drooooowwwn,
But ill dive for you, risk my life.
If you only knew,
What id do for you,
Youd see the truth.
Love takes only two.

[Verse 2:]
Youll prove your love to me,
I'll prove it to you too
We'll be eternity,
When we say "I do".
Lay with me tonight,
Choose the brightest star
This moment feels so right,
Cause i am where you are.

[Chorus]:
Shoot.... me... doooowwwn,
But i wiill always stand tall by your side,
Swim..... and.... drooooowwwn,
But ill dive for you, risk my life.
If you only knew,
What id do for you,
Youd see the truth.
Love takes only two.

[hook]:
When you share your love with me
I feel something special,
But now the truth is clear,
I need you here, always..
Forever..

[Ending]:
Swim..... and.... drooooowwwn,
But ill dive for you, risk my life.
If you only knew,
What id do for you,
Youd see the truth.
Love takes only two.